Workout Mood Swings

I wish I was one of those people (if they even exist?) who got pumped up to run a workout and stayed that way. Unfortunately, I often wage a mental battle with myself in the hours leading up to a tough track workout or tempo run. It gets easier once I’m in a routine, but I haven’t been to a team workout since February due to a steady racing schedule in March and a bit of a motivation slump in April. However, I decided that today would mark my return, mostly because I don’t want to embarrass myself in the Brooklyn half-marathon next month.

Inside Megan’s head (Thursday, April 28)

8:30am – It sure was nice to sleep in this morning. I’m so glad I decided to do a workout with my running club this evening!

2:07pm – (and half a bag of chocolate covered pretzels later) – Oh yeah, feelin’ good. I am carbo-loading for tonight.

2:28pm – (and an empty bag of chocolate covered pretzels) – Wah, too much chocolate. Why did I eat so much?? Now, I don’t feel like running fast later. Maybe I’ll go home and rent Country Strong instead. And watch it in bed…That sounds like a great idea.

4:00pm – Maybe I will just suck it up, drink some coffee for energy, and run a few miles easy. It will make me feel better! Yeah that’s what I’ll do…run a few miles solo. But definitely no workout. No way Jose.

6:08pm – (Text message from my friend J) Are you still going to the workout tonight?

6:48pm – Still at the office…pretty sure there’s no way I could make the workout even if I wanted to. I tell my friend that I’m going to run on the treadmill instead.

6:50pm – Bahh, I should just go. If I walk really fast to the gym I could still change and make it to the meeting spot in time!

So that is what I did. And you know what? I always always always feel better after I do a workout with the team.

The deets –

  • *1 mile warm-up
  • *6.2 mile tempo run in 46:30 (7:30 pace-ish)
  • *2.3 mile cool-down
  • *9.5 miles total

Not gonna lie, I felt pretty out of shape tonight, but I suppose this is what happens when you spend your weekends making peep s’mores and drinking wine instead of running! The Brooklyn Half probably isn’t going to be the race I envisioned when I signed up, but I’ve been putting in some decent mileage, so I shouldn’t bomb too badly. And if I do have an awful race? I have a wedding + open bar later that night to drown my sorrows.

Just Kidding. Sort of.

So yeah…this week has been pretty solid in terms of running. If I can pull off my planned morning run tomorrow (Friday) and my long run on Saturday, I should be golden.

Monday, April 25 – 10 miles medium

Tuesday, April 26 – 5 miles easy

Wednesday, April 27 – 4 miles easy + lifting

Thursday, April 28 – 9.5 miles (incl. 10k @ tempo pace)

Friday, April 29 – 7 miles easy

Saturday, April 30 – 11 miles easy

Sunday, May 1 – Rest day (aka recover from my friend’s bachelorette party from the night before)

Total: 45.5 miles

If you’re still reading this post, you deserve an award. I’m definitely kind of rambling. Besides listening to my inner dialogue (run! don’t run! eat chocolate!), I’ve been in a pretty good mood this week. I think a lot of it has to do with the weather – I love sunny, warm days more than anything. Winter can suck it.

Some things that have been making me happy this week-

My favorite breakfast! Every single day, I pick up berries + cottage cheese, coffee, and a slice of Eli Zabar’s health loaf with pb&j from the office cafeteria. I never get tired of it. (And don’t worry – I recycle those plastic containers!)

On Tuesday I took an actual lunch hour (how novel!) and sat outside in the sunshine and read my book whilst eating my salad.

Wednesday was Staff Appreciation day at work and I made sure to thank my stomach with a slice of chocolate cake and berries. It was excellent running fuel, I promise.

Do you get anxious and shifty when it comes to hard workouts or running with a group? Or am I just crazy? Because that is completely possible…

  • AR

    I’ll tell you how country strong ends (no, I didn’t see it but I read a plot summary) and save 2 hours of your life so you don’t have to debate the workout again if you like (it sounds terrible.)

    But I DO THIS ALL THE TIME. It’s just hard to be motivated for an entire day sometimes! (And by sometimes I mean always.) And this is to workout alone. If I tried to run with other people, I’d probably throw up from nervousness during the day. On the rare occasion I do even an easy run with people I freak. So I may be at least as crazy as you.

  • I do this with some workouts in general sometimes, especially if it is something I’m nervous about trying! You are not crazy!

  • Allie

    I analyze and debate my workouts before they actually happen way too much, also causing me to almost miss them entirely! So I do better if I fully commit with no way out to a group exercise, be it running or meeting a friend for a class.

  • Kristan

    So excited to see you tonight! And you are not the only one. I had anxiety all day just because I was so worried about the workout. Any tempos over 4 miles freak me out. Of course its always fine once you get it over with, but I spent most of my waking hours worrying!

  • Dani

    It was so good running with you last night! I agree with you and Kristan! I totally get anxiety before workouts. I have to remind myself that it will be ok and just to try my best! Sometimes throughout the workout I even have to give myself some positive talk to keep going! You are definitely not crazy!

  • agg, i used to be the same way with running. workouts are just plain HARD and anticipating the hard-ness ain’t fun. with yoga now i get lazy during the day sometimes and feel like i don’t wanna go to class, but once i’m there i’m so happy i did. it’s just a matter of pushing past the lazy/ fearful point of “i’m too tired/ full from my junk food binge/ not feelin’ it.”

    love that you have that cheap-o office cafeteria. i need one of those! so convenient.

  • Julienne

    I am the same way!! I debate with myself right up until I start the workout. But definitely always feel better after!!!

  • Mary Ann

    It’s so interesting to read your ‘rambles’ because I think you just summarized many a day for us runners. I only run in the morning (one-a-day shower program) so that I get it off of my to-do list. And by the way, I only sign-up for races at least one town away. I don’t like to run where alot of people know me. Weird.

  • Anonymous

    haha, i like your one-a-day shower rule. i needed two showers on wednesday
    and was not pleased.

  • Reading your dialogue reminded me why I run first thing in the morning! There really is not much to think about at 5 or 6 in the morning – I know it’s my only chance for the day, and just do it! I know it doesn’t work for everyone, but for me even if I have to sacrifice some sleep, it’s worth it. I’m glad you went and had a great workout! Always turns out that way 🙂

  • I’ve been in a good mood this week too – it must be the weather. Loving it! Your rambling post made me smile. Let’s run together next week, friend!

  • J (Morning runner)

    I always like doing those hard track/tempo workouts with my running group! Keeps me from slacking off!

  • that is my thought process when i choose to do my runs later in the day and not when i get up first thing.

    and i definitely get anxious when i’m going to run with other people. maybe not “fun runs” with others but anything training wise heck yes.

  • Ann

    But maybe you could bring your own dishes / reusable dishes, no ? I do that for take out and feel really responsable ahahah 😉

  • Of course – I definitely get anxious too running/training with others as well and actually don’t do it as much as I’d like. Good for you for making it to the run!
    I’m the same way with my breakfast habits – I typically have the same thing everyday – whole grain cereal, almond milk, plain organic yogurt, berries. 🙂

  • I thought you typed “anxious and shitty” and was stoked because I thought you had cursed on your blog. Psych! So I did it for you!

  • Courtney

    I definitely felt like this today when deciding whether or not to run outside (I’m in central FL, so running outside = running in mid 80-low 90 degree heat). However, I knew I’d feel guilty later, if I didn’t, and awesome if I did, so I put on my big girl panties and dealt with the heat. 🙂

    BTW, what book are you reading?

  • Anonymous

    I’m reading the Tea Rose – my friend recommended the novel after her book
    club chose it 🙂

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